
During the time I was having chemotherapy, I attended a local movie premier of Sex in the City. The evening was a fundraiser for breast cancer. Given the nature of the movie, the cinema was naturally full of women with the odd token male. As I casually looked around I sadly observed that one woman in each row of the cinema would be affected by breast cancer within her lifetime.
The latest statistics from The Cancer Council NSW state that one in seven women will develop breast cancer by the age of 75. This is an astonishing figure! I had heard these figures myself in the media many times, however, I was one of those people who had thought to herself, “not me, I’m too young, I’m too healthy.”
I was diagnosed with breast cancer in January 2008 at the age of thirty-three. I must admit it came as a rude shock as I had considered myself in near perfect health condition. I led a holistic and balanced lifestyle with a nutritious diet, exercised regularly and practised yoga and meditation. As most of my friends commented, I was the last person that they would expect to be diagnosed with the disease.
To me breast cancer was for older women although in recent years media portrayal of the stories of Kylie Minogue, Deltra Goodrem and Belinda Emmett had brought to the forefront that breast cancer does affect young women too.
As a yoga teacher, my job is all about the connection between the body, mind and spirit. Yoga is about our relationships, with ourselves, with others and our environment. From a yogic perspective, I did not believe that my breast cancer was random or that I was plain unlucky. In yoga, disease is caused when one becomes dis-connected on some level.
Ayurveda is the ancient Indian healing modality that addresses not only the physical body, but the cause of the disease. From an Ayurvedic perspective causes of breast cancer are both hereditary and acquired; the acquired causes being physical, emotional, spiritual, and environmental (Alakananda Devi Director of Alandi Ayurvedic Clinic, Colorado).
Ruling out genetics and many of the other contributing factors that are listed as putting one at ‘risk’, I innately knew that I would have to search deep within to understand where my disease had stemmed from on an emotional and spiritual level.
Yoga and Ayurveda considers each person a multi-dimensional human being and therefore addresses illness and healing in a holistic way. According to yoga, there are five layers to our existence; our physical body (annamaya); our breathing/energy level (pranamaya); our intellect (manomaya); our personality/nature (vijnamaya); and the level of bliss/spirit (anandamaya). All of these levels are entwined, interconnected. What is manifested on one level affects the other levels. The body is not considered separate from the mind.
For example, an illness can appear on the physical level, however it's cause may be caused from the emotions such as when we are sick with worry, or have indigestion after being angry.
Daniel Goleman in the book Healing Emotions (Daniel Goleman, Shambala 1997) stated; “The weight of scientific data shows that the link between emotions and health is particularly strong for negative feelings: anger, anxiety, and depression. These states, if strong and prolonged, can increase vulnerability to disease, worsen the symptoms, or hinder recovery. On the other hand, more positive states like equanimity and optimism seem to have salutary effects on health”.
With my belief and personal understanding that I had developed breast cancer as a result that on some level other than my physical body, there was ‘dis-ease’. The cancer was a result of an imbalance within my emotional being. I thus began my inward search to find the cause.
In my research on breast cancer I came across very little written about the link between emotions and breast cancer. I was amazed that so many women had breast cancer and so much money is being poured into research for a cure, but no one is looking at the root causes to the disease.
Within Western medicine, the cause of breast cancer is stated as ‘unknown’ but there are some factors known to increase the chance of developing breast cancer such as; being overweight, high alcohol consumption, use of the birth control pill, hormone therapy treatment, not having children or having them later in life (Cancer Council NSW).
My inward quest to learning more about the causes of breast cancer led me to an energetic healing modality called AcuEnergetics, which helped me to understand how it was that I was holding (emotionally) that contributed to the breast cancer. To cut a long story short – I was holding in my heart. I had lived my life in “protection mode” so as not to get hurt. This is a really common thing for women to do – hence the large number of women with breast cancer.
My more recent studies of energy healing with Universal Medicine has helped me to understand that the energetic root underlying cause of breast cancer is due to lack of self-nurturing. It’s that simple. We do not love and nurture ourselves enough. To know this and then to change how we are is another (and much harder) story.
We need to address the energy that we are living in. Learn to be gentle in our bodies. Some simple examples to look at within ourselves are; how do I walk? How do I open the door? How do I make my cup of tea? How do I do my yoga postures? How do I breathe? Is it with a hardness in my body or could I do these things with a gentle energy? How do I feel when I breathe a gentle breath? How do I feel when I walk in a gentle rhythm? Having learnt to make these changes in my own life, I can tell you, it feels beautiful. When I live in gentleness, I re-connect with myself and I feel like me. The hardness, the pain, the anger and other negative emotions and behaviours start to drop away. The beauty of who we really are (in yoga this is referred to the anandamaya) starts to shine.
So that you do not become a statistic and perhaps saving yourself from surgery, chemotherapy and radiation therapy, you might want to consider in each moment, what is my relationship to myself? Am I holding onto resentment, anger? Can I feel constriction around my heart? Can I be more gentle with myself and really start to self-nurture and self-love by changing the energy that I live in.
This requires time and commitment. I consistently work on this on a daily basis. By doing this, I do not live in fear of a reoccurence, as I know that I’m addressing the root cause of my cancer.
Donna Gianniotis is an experienced and inspiring yoga teacher who offers Yoga for Cancer classes at Adore Yoga on Sundays at 10am and Hatha Yoga classes on Sundays at 11am.
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